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The pages has turned and I am giving myself a fresh start to learn something new, to improve and to leave everything behind that has been already part of the past. 
2022 has been one of my best year, I got a lot of achievements, realizations, and lessons.
Now I have this urge to do more and be more, but the only problem is I don't where to start, just like writing a story without a proper beginning.
 I am lost with my words, and I can't even force myself to move because there is something that hinders me inside. 
Am I afraid? 
Am I ashamed? 
Am I doubting myself? 
I don't know maybe some you already felt this kind of feeling. 
Maybe I am just being overwhelmed by my thoughts? or maybe I'm just over-reacting
. I have so many plans but I can't even pick one to start with because 
I want it to be accomplished right away.
Then I realized that I should take everything slowly and just patiently wait for my turn because I know one day everything will fall into place, as it will always be.  

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