Life choices

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Sometimes I wonder how I ended up in this situation. I always taught myself to stand firm and not to enter circumstances that will make me question my worth, but here I am now. I'm afraid. I'm worried, but I'm holding on to this one thought, that moments are fleeting so as time. If I don't do it now, I might regret it later, that is why I chose to continue. I chose what will make me happy. Even if its temporary. Even if I don't know where it'll lead me. Even if I feel lost sometimes. Even if I feel hurt sometimes. Even if I feel empty sometimes. We all feel that way at some points of our lives tho. I know it's only me, myself and I who's killing me, but I also know what are the things I need to go through as a human being.

I still believe in better days, I also acknowledge melancholic days. I think, in order for me to survive this kind of situation is to not figure everything out for once in a while, because no one can, and it is still me who can save myself.

I realized that, where I am today is exactly where my choices in life had lead me. So if someday I might succeed, or the other way around, I'll look back and reflect on the situation and accept that it's me, not other people but it's me, who chose to end up on a situation like this. 

-ofelijahnicolle